Starting over.

"For those of you who are secretly holding their breath waiting for me to slip and fall… THANK..."

Mon, 30 Jul 2012 15:04:22 -0400

“For those of you who are secretly holding their breath waiting for me to slip and fall…
THANK YOU FOR THE PUSH AND MOTIVATION TO BECOME EVEN GREATER THAN WHAT YOU FEAR FOR ME TO BE.”

For someone who is extremely emotion-less and nonchalant 95% of the time, my heart was hurt with...

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 05:04:35 -0400

For someone who is extremely emotion-less and nonchalant 95% of the time, my heart was hurt with just one text tonight. If there is one thing that I absolutely hate, it’s witnessing someone get bullied into believing that being themselves isn’t enough.

NEVER AGAIN will I consciously allow anyone to devalue someone’s worth and potential in front of me. And I don’t give a fuck about what anyone has to say about it.

Lesson LEARNED.

Back at it.

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 03:33:00 -0400

When I see something I want to do, I do it—with no excuses, hesitations or doubts. And I do it simply because I want to. Being raised by a family that is built on an extremely strong foundation of hard work, gratitude and humility, living an easy lifestyle was never in the cards for me. I was taught to never expect praise for anything because it’s what I should already be doin. All I expect is growth. In every aspect of the word. I want to grow mentally, intellectually and spiritually. I want to challenge myself. I want to fail. I want to succeed. I want to learn. I want to teach. And I want to go beyond my limits in the process. I simply want to work hard because I don’t want it if it’s handed to me. I don’t want it if it’s easy. I’ve never been the one to yearn for my desires served to me on a silver platter. I want the feeling that my Dad always tells me about, about the individual gratification of doin things for yourself, with no help from others. “Individual”—as in, he’s always taught me to do things to make myself proud and to not do things to gain the respect or admiration of others because in the end, it’s my life and I’m the only one that’s gotta live it.

I take after my Dad in the context that I don’t love or show emotion often. I am very selective and very few have seen me love. However, those who truly know me know that when I fall in love with something/someone, I love hard. With everything in me. This is why something doesn’t have to be taken away from me for me to truly value and appreciate it’s importance in my life. I’ve always been taught an unspoken gratitude not for the relationships that I’ve been given, but for my relationships with goals, dreams and people that I’ve had to work for/earn. My love and appreciation for my current relationships and achievements never has to be questioned. It only grows, intensifies and cultivates with experience.

My family values and how I was raised has unknowingly influenced most of my most important life decisions. I don’t know where I’m goin and I don’t know what I’m doin, but I know that I never plan on settling or cheating myself out of an opportunity to grow, work hard and stimulate my inner will and passion to succeed.

Maybe what this is what this summer is all about, reliving moments and relearning past lessons to find relevance in my present. I hope to stay home as much as I can this summer. It feels good to take a step back and reevaluate things. I’ve been so busy that I haven’t been able to just let things flow in a blog in awhile. But, I’m back at it.

Oh wsuppp girrrrrl.

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Mon, 26 Dec 2011 04:35:21 -0500

“Don’t gain the world and lose your soul. Wisdom is...

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 20:57:00 -0500

“Don’t gain the world and lose your soul. Wisdom is better than silver and gold. Where there’s a will, there’s always a way.” Bob Marley (Zion Train)

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Fri, 14 Oct 2011 02:49:05 -0400

"Thank God I found the good in goodbye."

Wed, 17 Aug 2011 22:17:49 -0400

“Thank God I found the good in goodbye.”

Wed, 10 Aug 2011 23:18:03 -0400

"Sometimes you have to forget how you feel &remember what you deserve."

Tue, 09 Aug 2011 14:44:18 -0400

“Sometimes you have to forget how you feel &remember what you deserve.”

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Tue, 09 Aug 2011 01:53:10 -0400

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Sun, 07 Aug 2011 15:49:12 -0400

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Fri, 29 Jul 2011 02:24:39 -0400

"I’m not heartless, I just use my heart less."

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 00:45:30 -0400

“I’m not heartless, I just use my heart less.”

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Sat, 23 Jul 2011 16:54:00 -0400

"There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind."

Sat, 23 Jul 2011 16:38:27 -0400

“There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”

- C.S. Lewis (via girlwithoutwings)

They Can't See This Vacancy

Fri, 15 Jul 2011 15:51:30 -0400

Hi. How could I forget you? Your face. It’s so beautiful. I remember when I used to love looking at it. But. I was wondering. If maybe, just maybe you’d go away now. Please?

‘Cuz I’m tired.
So,
so,
tired.

Of cleaning up after the mess you left behind. In my mind, in my heart, in my soul. And even in the small of my back. I’m tired of drowning out your voice in the morning with Wale on the Ipod, and I’m especially tired of hearing whispers of what coulda, woulda, shoulda from your side of the bed at night.

I wish I could sweep away every memory in my brain of you. So that I could forget how I wound up in your arms anyway. Then, maybe I’d stop retracing my steps back there. I would appreciate it if you returned the favor and forgot my name, number, and address to my heart as well. Because it’s just not fair anymore.

How you’re everything to me. When I’m nothing to you at all.

When you’re everywhere. And I’m not even a scent on your pillow, a reflection in your mirror, or a taste on the tip of your tongue. I try to hate you, I want to forget you, but I miss you instead. So please, just go away. Grab your stuff and leave. Because I’m tired of picking up my phone to dial your number after something good happens to me. I’m tired of seeing jackets and shirts and sweaters that I want to buy ‘cuz they’d look so good on you. And I’m tired of laying with him … then rolling over and wondering how you are, what you’re doing, and if you still think of me. Here, I’ll even help you pack. I just hope this box is big enough for your ego, and all the other shit you left behind.

FAM FIRST.

Thu, 07 Jul 2011 16:43:03 -0400

FAM FIRST.

"If you keep having to ask where you stand with someone, maybe it’s time to start walking away."

Tue, 05 Jul 2011 02:49:33 -0400

““If you keep having to ask where you stand with someone, maybe it’s time to start walking away.””

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